By Myself

What do i do to ignore them behind me?
Do i follow my instincts blindly?
Do i hide my pride from this bad dreams
And give in to sad thoughts that are maddening?
Do i sit here and try to stand it?
Or do i try to catch them red-handed?
Do i trust some and get fooled by phoniness
Or do i trust nobody and live in loneliness?
Because i can't hold on when i'm streched so thin
I make the right moves but i'm lost within
I put my daily facade but then
I just end up getting hurt again
By myself (Self)
I ask why/but in my mind i find
I can't rely on myself

I can't hold on
[To what i want when i'm streched so thin]
It's all too much to take in
I can't hold on
[To anything watching everything spin]
With thougths of failure sinking in

If i turn my bak i'm defenseless
And to go blindly seems senseless
If i hide my pride and let it all go on
Then they'll take from me till everything is gone
If i let them go i'll be outdone
But if i try to catch them i'll be outrun
If i'm killed by the questions like a cancer
Then i'll be buried in the silence of the answer
[By myself]

I ask why/but in my mind i find
I can't rely on myself

I can't hold on
[To what i want when i'm streched so thin]
It's all too much to take in
I can't hold on
[To anything watching everything spin]
With thougths of failure sinking in

How do think/I've lost so much
I'm so afraid/I'm out of touch
How do you expect/I will know what to do
When all i know/It's what you tell me to

Don't you know
I can't tell you how to make it go
No matter what i do, i hard i try
I can't seem to convince my self why
I'm stuck to the outside

I ask why/but in my mind i find
I can't rely on myself

I can't hold on
[To what i want when i'm streched so thin]
It's all too much to take in
I can't hold on
[To anything watching everything spin]
With thougths of failure sinking in